The Time Out

Today had been good so far. He got really frustrated and needed to take a "time-out" because when he gets into his bi-polar modes, He really insults me. Its a good idea, but when He does this, I want to IM my ex boyfriend "Larry" and tell him that I want to sleep him.. I think this is a part of BPD, being promiscuous, and wanting male attention. IDK.. I am really messed up. But, instead, I got on here to talk about it. That's a start right? If I want Him to be faithful to me, then I need to be faithful to Him, as hard as it is going to be.