ISOLATING

I hate my life. I fucking hate it. I wish everyone would just stay out of my life and leave me alone. I wish I could just live in a nice little house with all my animals, and all the food I want and no one could interfere or interrupt my life. Everyone is just getting in the way of everything. Everyday, I have to worry about what my boufriend does, if he is looking at porn, or if he is working like he should. My so called "bff" sits here and says she is going to hang out with me all the time, and we make plans, and then I dont even fucking hear from her. So I have that to worry about. Then, I have fucking cunts from businesses to worry about and I worry how they are going to treat my boyfriend, or I worry what they look like bc my boyfriend might possibly meet them in the future, and they might be hot and my boyfriend might want to fuck them.

I just wished I didnt have to worry about anything. A worry free life, with no bad surprises or blindsiding things. I dont even care about money. All I care about is being happy. That is my only wish in life, is to be happy. Gosh, that would be the best life ever. THAT would be a life worth living. I can just see it now. Being happy most of the time. Wow, that would be amazing..but thats not the case. I am miserable. I just want my misery to end. And you know what..I was blaming it on everyone else in the beginning. Its my god damned fault. Its ALL me. NO ONE else. ME. So, I am going to take me out of the equation. I am going to distance myself from everyone and everything. Maybe I will make people happier by staying out of THEIR precious lives.